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Becoming Wonder Woman

DSC_0839In my opinion, the best part of the movie Batman v Superman Dawn of Justice was Gal Gadot’s Wonder Woman. Sprinkled throughout the movie as Diana Prince, she finally appears, armor-clad at the end of the movie as Wonder Woman. She comes to the rescue of both heroes, and boy does she kick some ass. Last summer, the new Wonder Woman movie trailer premiered at San Diego Comicon and according to my husband Michael, I “lost my shit”.

My journey towards becoming Wonder Woman began last year when I was poking around the artisan shopping website Etsy. I saw a fantastic re-creation of the Wonder Woman (Batman V Superman) movie costume available from JEFXStore. The listing was for a full cosplay costume complete with tiara, armband, the iconic “bracelets”, lasso, sword, and shield props, as well as the bodice, skirt and leg/foot armor. At the time, there was nothing else like it out there. It’s obvious the time, attention to detail and dedication that went into making this costume. After much deliberation, soul-searching and a blessing from my husband, I pulled the trigger and bought one. My intention was to wear it at the 2017 Emerald City Comicon (ECCC) in Seattle.

For the past several years my husband and I have attended ECCC. If you don’t know about Comicon, it’s hard to explain. It’s a weekend event that multiple cities host at different times of the year. Its focus is mainly comic books, but graphic novels, TV shows, and pop culture also have a place at the table. Merchandise booths, artist tables, panel discussions, celebrity autographs and photos are all part of the event. The San Diego Comicon is probably the biggest. It is certainly the one with the most celebrity appearances. I’d say the majority of the attendees dress up in costume or cosplay outfits. Many of the costumes are very detailed including contact lenses, fake weaponry, and wigs. My husband and I have been part of the few who haven’t dressed up in years past, apart from a fan tee shirt. To put it in perspective, my husband calls Comicon the “Nerd Prom”.

About three months out from the event date, I really clamped down hard on my fitness and diet. Both my weightlifting and water trainers knew about the costume. At 5’8”, 145 lbs., a former ballet, and fitness instructor, I’m in good shape and fairly proportionate. With no specific goal in mind, I just wanted to rock the costume with confidence.

Realizing that I was going to be traipsing around Seattle at the beginning of March with little on, I commissioned a cloak to be made by wyrdarmouries, also on Etsy. It was modeled after the one she fashions in the movie, with fur trim. Thank heavens I did! It was wonderfully warm and the fleece was snuggly soft. I loved how the arm hole slits, instead of sleeves (how many cloaks are) showed off the “bracelets”, so a bit of the costume was showing.

DSC_0852As January turned into February, I was sidelined not just once from a foodborne illness, but TWICE, 18 days apart. After the first time, I didn’t eat for a week. I had not regained my strength or stamina fully (nor tummy flora) when I experienced the second episode. With less than a month until Comicon, the timing couldn’t have been worse. After making significant strides in my workouts, I was suddenly reduced to sleeping all day or feebly shuffling about the house. I could barely walk for longer than 30 seconds without needing to sit and rest. Going up stairs wiped me out and taking a shower was like running a marathon. It’s not a diet I endorse, believe me!

I realized something during my training and diet change, gearing up for this event. I can assume most folks wouldn’t notice a difference in my body. Those that know me, already know I work out regularly and have been active all my life with ballet, yoga, and fitness. They know I eat fairly well, so I’m guessing their perception of me won’t change much, if at all. I say this because I made several posts to Facebook about my training and daily caloric burn goals. I’m sure there may be an expectation for my outward physical appearance to have changed but it hasn’t much. Although I am stronger! I, myself was hoping for Linda Hamilton, Terminator 2 shoulders & arms, but in truth, I wasn’t working toward a bodybuilding competition, I was training to feel the best and most confident I could in the WW costume.

The weekend before Comicon, I suited up and my husband took some photos of me at our home. I thought the landscape surrounding our home made for better photos than downtown Seattle. This was also a dress rehearsal of sorts. I tested the costume, shoes, props, hair and make-up. I’m glad I did it because I was able to make a few small changes.

Suiting up on the big day, I have to admit that there may have been a slight concern bubbling in the back of my head. What if no one really notices the costume? What if no one asks me for a photo? Etc, etc. etc. My concerns were quickly put to rest. Within minutes of losing the cloak (to the coat check), I was not only asked for several photos, but I was also interviewed for GeekWire, as well as videoed for Evening Magazine (Seattle TV show). Over the next several hours, countless people kindly asked for photos (a few didn’t ask but took photos anyway). I received a ton of compliments, some said directly to me, some in passing, some overheard, as well as many thumbs-up and approving head nods. I was also very surprised that there weren’t any other serious Wonder Women contenders, at least this day.

I really enjoyed taking photos with children. Parents of a little girl dressed up as Negan from The Walking Dead asked me to take a photo with their daughter. She was adorable! Hair pulled back, beard drawn on her face, leather jacket, red scarf and even the beloved bat Lucille. I could see the eyes of children (especially girls) light up when they saw me. Tugging on mom or dad’s arm saying, “Look, it’s Wonder Woman!” I’d smile and motion them over for a photo if they weren’t already on their way. The impact the costume had on the little ones was surprising to me, but it shouldn’t have been. If I had seen a real life Wonder Woman when I was a child, I too would have been awestruck.

This was my first experience spending any serious time in the get-up. I was pleasantly surprised at just how comfortable it was. Although, I did develop a mind numbing headache after several hours. I believe my head piece was a bit tight, but being dehydrated didn’t help either. My feet also paid a small price. It’s amazing just how long you are willing to tolerate discomfort when folks are making over you, with compliments and wanting photos.

IMG_1259ECCC Day Two
Same song, second verse and more of the same. A few folks asked if I had seen the Lego Wonder Woman, located in a different part of the event. Michael and I went in search and indeed there was a life size Lego Wonder Woman. As I was posing for him to take a photo or two, many people gathered around and started snapping photos. While standing next to the Lego figure, a man commented that he thought I was also a life-size statue. Aww, how kind.

This day, there were a few Wonder Women and even a few Wonder Men. Several gals wore different renditions (New 52, Pin-up, Classic) and two others donned the movie version I was wearing. I don’t feel I’m being biased, but my costume was the most accurate, detailed and complete. Thanks, JEFXStore!

At one point in the day, we were waiting for an artist to return to his booth so I could pick up a piece of WW art. Since I was standing still, a few people asked for photos. One particular man, I saw in the back of the group, was taking a photo (w/o asking) as he walked by. I looked at him and realized it was an ex-boyfriend. He didn’t recognize me. I said, “I know you.” Then it came to him. Quite a funny little transformation occurred. Suddenly he was all smiles, a tad flustered, maybe even a little embarrassed as he bumbled around his family and said to me “Hey how’s is going?” I totally got the head tilt and Who the hell is she? look from his wife. For that 15 second moment alone, this event was worth it!

Another little interesting slice from the day happened when I tried to get a cab outside the Sheraton hotel by myself. Michael was getting his photograph with Stan Lee and my feet were killing me, so I decided to head back to our condo. I walked out of the hotel and spotted several cabs lined up with the drivers chatting on the sidewalk. I walked up to them, as they were googly eyeing me. I said “Wonder Woman needs a ride.” They asked where to. Second and Lenora. They seemed to conference and then shook their heads and said no. NO?!? Seriously?!? My guess is that this was not far enough and they were looking for a bigger fare. But still! Back to the hotel, I walked. I found a bell boy (again with the googly eyes) and asked for assistance with getting a cab. No Problem! Yes, Ma’am! He whistled and the first cabbie from the same group reluctantly got in his cab and pulled around. I tipped the bell boy and got in the cab. The total fare was $5.60 and all I had were two fives and two twenties. Before giving him the money I said, “I appreciate you coming around. But the next time a girl needs a cab, I suggest you help her out!” Then I gave him ten bucks.

My experience at ECCC as Wonder Woman was really amazing. I tried not to have any expectations and just go with the flow. The response to me and the costume was better than I could have hoped. I was very flattered. People were really kind, sometimes shy, but overall very enthusiastic about Wonder Woman. Michael and I have already discussed attending next year. Since the movie comes out in June, and it’s an event we normally attend, it only makes sense to wear the costume again.

I need to send out a HUGE Thanks to my husband, Michael. I couldn’t have attended the event as WW without his support. He carried a small stash of things for me, and all of our purchases. He dutifully took photos for people (and for me) as well as stepped aside every time he heard, “Can I have a picture with you?” He’d hold my shield and sword when asked, as well as return my sword to the scabbard on my back. He never once rushed me as I was getting ready (suiting up as WW takes some time!) and was always accommodating when I needed him to lace me up in the bodice. He also walked behind me to catch the looks and comments as I walked by folks. AND he even wore a (men’s) Wonder Women tee-shirt. Thanks, Babe! Love you!

IMG_6029Reflecting on my Comicon adventure, I am proud to have been able to embody such an iconic symbol of grace, strength, compassion, and power that is clearly much bigger than myself. I am truly humbled and honored to have played even a small part in such a big phenomenon.
Until next year . . .

Grace   Power   Wisdom   Wonder

In Addition

Like most girls, when I was younger I watched a few Wonder Woman TV episodes with Lynda Carter. But I wouldn’t have called myself a fanatical Wonder Woman fan . . . until now. I’m sure it seems silly, but that movie trailer really spoke to me. Just look at her! Powerful, confident, strong, graceful, innocent and yet worldly as well as beautiful. She is such a bad-ass, how can she not appeal to just about everyone? I was hooked! I promptly jumped on the bandwagon and became her biggest fan overnight. I purchased a few books about the famous Amazon from Amazon (Ha!) and started reading her origin and backstory.

For those who might not know – Wonder Woman first appeared in All Star Comics #8 in December 1941 and first cover-dated on Sensation Comics #1, January 1942. The Wonder Woman title has been published by DC Comics almost continuously except for a brief hiatus in 1986. Wonder Woman was created by American psychologist, lawyer, inventor, advocate for women, and comic book writer William Moulton Marston. Mr. Marston was a very interesting fella, although he was also a bit of a contradiction. To learn more about him and his eccentricities, read Wonder Woman Unbound: The Curious History of the World’s Most Famous Heroine by Tim Hanley.

To bring our story to present day, in October of 2016 the United Nations named Wonder Woman an honorary ambassador for the empowerment of women and girls. Which is awesome, right!?! Then they stripped her of the title less than two months later because “concerned” United Nations staff members created a petition stating “Although the original creators may have intended Wonder Woman to represent a strong and independent warrior woman with a feminist message, the reality is that the character’s current iteration is that of a large breasted, white woman of impossible proportions, scantily clad in a shimmery, thigh-baring body suit with an American flag motif and knee high boots — the epitome of a pin-up girl.” [1]

REALLY?!? Oh for heaven’s sake! I’m a feminist as much as the next gal, but you can’t have a damned if you do, damned if you don’t attitude. I agree, some comic artists have really sexualized Wonder Woman. It’s very typical in the comic book world. While I don’t agree with it, small strides have been made toward equality. Women drawn with huge boobs, next to nothing on, bent over, looking over her shoulder with a come-hither look is slightly less than porn in my opinion. What those UN petition writing staffers failed to see or know is what Wonder Woman stands for. Had any of them even bothered to read her origin story or any of the classic Golden Age comics? Or did any of them know how unique and different Wonder Woman is compared to her male Superhero counterparts? Probably not. All they saw were the (mostly male) artists that sexualize her.

Perhaps another point worth noting is that sexuality is power. What’s wrong with that? Is Superman in his painted on full unitard not sexy? What about Batman’s black molded body armor and mask? Let’s face it, Superheroes are sexy! There is nothing wrong with that. However, there is a difference (although perhaps a subjective difference) between being sexy and being sexualized. While the range of what is considered sexy is vast and large, I would say drawings of a woman with huge boobs, impossible body proportions, little clothing, in a provocative position can easily be considered sexualized. I know I consider it so. And for the record, male Superhero’s typically don’t deal with sexualization, because it’s not an issue for them. (Picture Spiderman on all fours, looking back at you in a flirtatious manner. Isn’t that ridiculous?)

To address the statement above of what Wonder Woman stands for, she is an ideal of what we can all strive for. Compassion, unity, freedom, equality for all, forgiveness, diplomacy, passion, bravery, peaceful, and nurturing. Her Wikipedia page states “What has remained constant, and is a mainstay of the character, is her nurturing humanity: feeling compassion and having a strong conscience.” [2] That is the Wonder Woman deserving of the title honorary UN ambassador for the empowerment of women and girls. Sometimes we really need to look beyond what is right in front of us and see the bigger picture.
[1] http://www.cnn.com/2016/12/13/health/wonder-woman-un-ambassador-trnd/index.html
[2] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wonder_Woman

WW San Diego Comic Con Trailer:


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Dear Olympia Restaurants and Food Service Establishments

th-copy-2If you’ve ever had food poisoning, you feel as if you are going to die, in fact, after several hours of painful stomach cramps as well as violent diarrhea and vomiting, you kind of wish for death. It’s really one of the worst experiences you can have. It starts with a mild tummy ache that comes on in light waves. You think, wow, this is not cool, I hope it goes away. Over a few hours, the pain increases. Soon you are sitting or laying down, doubled over, writhing in discomfort. During this time, your body is preparing to expel (by whatever means necessary) the multiplying bacteria in your body. Or in other words, unleash hell. I don’t really need to explain the truly miserable experience of diarrhea and vomiting. It’s seriously no joke (and no exaggeration) when you hear “I didn’t know what end to put on the toilet.” Luckily, in my experience, I managed to hit my target, but that’s not to say there weren’t some close calls. Even in complete agony, I am able to read my body signals and get to the bathroom. (I have never liked camping out on the bathroom floor. I find a bed even the slightest bit more comfortable.) When my body temperature rises, my mouth salivates and a warning in my gut tells me vomiting will soon commence. When finished, I am ice cold, shivering with uncontrollable muscle spasms. At this point, you should start drinking electrolytes to decrease the chances of dehydration. Up and down, back and forth from the bed to the bathroom for about 7 hours or so. Every time you think you are done, and there couldn’t possibly be anything left to get rid of, your body surprises you and say Nope, Guess Again! After a while, you are so exhausted, at about 1:30 in the morning, you manage to take a small anti-diarrhea pill and fall asleep.

Now, even though the most wretched part is over (usually) you are left completely depleted, weak, and exhausted for several days. In fact, full recovery won’t happen for several weeks to months. All of your gut flora has been wiped out, most of the nutrients in your body are gone and dehydration is a serious concern for several days. Not to mention, you have absolutely no appetite. Which is counter-productive to regaining any strength or will to move farther than a few feet at a time. And you can forget about going up stairs or doing damn near anything for several days. Figure on sitting for long periods, sleeping or shuffling around the house in sweats you’ve been in since the nightmare began.

I seem to have a rather in-depth knowledge of this you say. Yes, yes, I do. Between August 2013 and February 2017 (3 years and 6 months), I’ve got food pinioning 3 times from places in Olympia (not from home cooking). Two of the instances were only 18 days apart. That means I wasn’t fully recovered from one of the episodes when I got it again. AGAIN!! In this entire time, my husband never got sick. Meaning, it made narrowing down the culprits easier because sometimes we ate at the same place, but ate different things.

My beef (no pun) with Olympia food establishments is food safety seems to be an afterthought. I, myself know quite a bit about food safety, as a pretty serious gourmet home cook. I even have a food handlers permit (it’s not hard to get). Which I got just for the heck of it. I read The Olympians Health Inspections and there is really no excuse for multiple red violations.
NO EXCUSE! If you are in the food business, food safety should be your number one priority. If your product looks or smells remotely off, DON”T SERVE IT!! And for Heaven’s Sake, WASH YOUR HANDS . . . ALWAYS and after EVERYTHING!

The trouble is that many food “professionals” in Olympia aren’t that at all. It is just a job, it’s not a career. Say for example any of the Tom Douglas restaurants in Seattle (Lola, Dahlia Lounge, Palace Kitchen, Serious Pie, etc.) I feel confident that the likelihood of getting a foodborne illness from one of his restaurants is pretty slim because the entire staff is made up of career chefs, bartenders, hostesses, wait staff, etc. How to prep and handle chicken as well as cooking it to an internal temp of 165 F is so engrained, they could do it with a blindfold on. In fact, when I was two weeks out from my second bout of foodborne hell, my husband and I were in Seattle and needed a place to eat dinner. Feeling a bit anemic from not eating for 5 days, a burger sounded good and Palace Kitchen has one of the best in Seattle. I was completely confident that it wouldn’t make me sick. Super fresh, farm-sourced ingredients, homemade bun, excellent quality meat, professional, well-known restaurant, career chefs – no problem.

I’m not going to name names (where I got ill). But one of the places is considered to be one of Olympia’s “better” restaurants (near the water). They should have known better. I got sick from a chicken salad. Due to the events surrounding eating there, my husband and I ate there on my birthday (seriously) and had different entrees, I am 100% sure it was the chicken salad from this particular restaurant.

I’ve had three different conversations with the Health Department. The second was an hour interview with four pages of questions. I was lucky enough to speak with the gal who inspects the offending restaurant. She took it very seriously. I wish the cooks in Olympia took it as seriously as she does. Food safety really isn’t difficult. People’s health and even lives are in your hands when you cook for them. It’s to be taken very seriously! I even go so far as to Clorox wipe my entire kitchen down after dealing with raw chicken. As someone who’s had food poisoning, that’s how seriously I take food safety!

Food is one of life’s greatest pleasures and I take great pride in eating good food as well as cooking it. It’s true you can taste the love food is cooked with. I take great care every time I make a meal and cook with love. I’d feel just awful if I knew my husband (or anyone else) got sick from something I made.

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Death Comes To Us All

casket-cover-funeral-arrangementAs Queen Isabella so eloquently said in the movie Braveheart, “Death comes to us all.” Over the summer I read several books on Buddhism. On my journey of growth I decided to meander down a path towards learning more about Buddhism (religion, philosophy and way of life). Currently, I’m reading The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying by Sogyal Rinpoche. The book sends several powerful messages. The first message, death is an inevitable absolute that will indeed happen to each of us and no one can escape it. In the West, we go to great lengths to avoid, dance around, or ignore the reality of death. Which is silly, if you think about it. In the Buddhist tradition is it said that: Contemplation and meditation on death and impermanence are regarded as very important in Buddhism for two reasons : (1) it is only by recognizing how precious and how short life is that we are most likely to make it meaningful and to live it fully and (2) by understanding the death process and familiarizing ourself with it, we can remove fear at the time of death and ensure a good rebirth.* Now, regardless if you believe in rebirth or not, the part about removing fear at the time of death sounds pretty good to me. And if I can achieve that for myself as well as help loved ones, I’m on board!

The second half of the book especially focuses on being with loved ones during the moments before as well as at the time of death, and how to best help them (and you) through the process. One needn’t be Buddhist to find this information extremely insightful, graceful and indeed helpful. As a daughter who witnessed her mother’s death, I would have found these teachings comforting as well as useful. I strongly encourage everyone to seek the invaluable wisdom from this book.

My personal inspiration for obtaining this knowledge is, if I am graced with the opportunity to be present at the death of a loved one, that I may extend unwavering compassion and unconditional love. I wish to be a loving presence and create a supportive atmosphere for their last moments. My desire is that I am strong in the face of losing someone dear to me and that I will have the poise to not let my feelings override my commitment to the other person. (IE: not make someone’s death about me.) Who would not want to do this for someone they care for? While this may sound simple and perhaps obvious, there are steps to take and even a (Buddhist) protocol if you will.

In the West, we rush the process of death and lack of a proper environment for the dying. Certain circumstances (like my mothers) will not warrant the luxury of dying at home. However, home is the ideal place to pass on. Surrounded by the familiar, in one’s own clothes, with family, in one’s own bed, and in one’s most cherished place. The key is to make the environment as free from distraction, negativity, and additional nonsense as possible. Promote a space of tranquil peace, unconditional love and support, as well as quiet and zen like. Create a place to inspire spiritual practice (whatever the method and religion) for the dying as well as the living – this is critical!

If a hospital is the only option, and your loved one is close to death, it’s a good idea to ask the hospital staff not to disturb them and to stop taking tests. Request a private room, silence the machines, and request a do not resuscitate from the staff, if that is the patients wish or the wish of the family. Something we don’t often think about, is while resuscitating someone may mean we get more time with them, we must consider the cost to the patient. It’s very traumatic and can severely disrupt their mental, physical and spiritual peace. It’s advised not to hang on needlessly to someone whose death is becoming more and more imminent.

I found it interesting that it’s suggested you indeed tell the person they are dying (often they already know). Of course, this is not signing their death warrant if they miraculously recover. But it helps to start them down the path towards preparing for death in addition to evoking their own spiritual practice.

One should also give the loved one permission to die. Often they are hanging on, struggling and fighting because they see, hear, sense or know how troubled you are over their circumstance. This unnecessary suffering causes them much unrest and pain during a time when they should be concentrating on their own peace, and journey beyond. It’s helpful to comfort them, reassure them you will be alright, you love them and it’s ok for them to go. As hard as this is (for you) it’s vital they die in peace and without any kind of suffering – mental, physical or spiritual.

It’s also important to note, that the unconscious are possibly far more aware than we realize. Communication, feelings and attitudes of others in the room, and environment play a significant role in the wellbeing of the patient.

Buddhists say that the most important moment of our lives is the moment of death. In simple terms, one’s afterlife is dependent on your past actions (positive and negative – thoughts, words and deeds), and the resulting karma of those actions. It is also possible to achieve enlightenment at the time of death, some sources say it’s guaranteed, if even on a small scale. And this is due to our inherent Buddha nature, in each and every one of us. This is largely appealing to me because I was raised Episcopalian and taught through Christianity that we are all sinners and must atone for our sins (which is also true to some extent). Focusing on our inner Buddha nature, tells me that I too am capable of enlightenment. I guess it’s all a matter of perspective.

One of the great points mentioned in the book is about when we have a “bad” day. Perhaps we’ve been fired from our job. Or maybe we’ve suffered a divorce or a break-up. Consider that while this is a period of suffering for you, the dying lose everything in one fell swoop. Their home, job, loved ones, body, money, health, all they hold dear – All At Once! For me, that certainly puts things in perspective.

While I have yet to seriously sit down and meditate on death, I figure, I’m reading a great deal about it and therefore it’s forced me to consider my own death as well as the death of my most dearest love, my husband. If the Fates choose him before me and I am granted the opportunity to be at his side, I want my last act as his wife and partner of this life to be one of beautiful compassion, absolute tenderness and fearless devotion.
* Sources http://buddhanet.net/deathtib.htm

Sogyal Rinpoche also has three audiobooks available on iTunes.

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Dinner and Driving

IMG_4823This past weekend my husband and I were in Las Vegas to spend time with a group of friends. Through the travel agent of a friend, we got a pretty good rate for the Mandarin Oriental Hotel, located next to the Aria. I did not know this was a casino-free, nonsmoking hotel, but boy did it make a huge difference with the comfort of my trip, as well as the comfort of my sinuses and eyes.

My husband and I had a few plans of our own in addition to plans with the group. An activity I was really looking forward to was the chance to drive a supercar around a race track (yes, they have this in Vegas). Taken from their website – Exotics Racing is the premiere supercar track driving experience that offers the world’s largest fleet of exotic cars. Drivers can choose from Ferrari, Lamborghini, Porsche, Audi R8 V10, Nissan GT-R, Mercedes AMG GTS, McLaren 570s, Aston Martin, Chevrolet Corvette C7 Z06, among other cars.

Being an unapologetic Audi snob, I chose the Audi R8 (Iron Man/Tony Stark’s car). Being a Bond fan, Michael was going to choose the Aston Martin, but it had been retired, so he was able to choose one of their other R8’s. The R8 boasts a 5.2L V10 engine, 525 horsepower with a top speed of 196 mph and 0-60 in 3.7 seconds. It also has a price tag of around $170,000.00 Audi also has a pretty legendary racing pedigree, winning multiple World Rally Championships, as well as winning 12 of the last 14 years of Le Mans (a famous France 24 hour endurance race).

We were picked up at the Aria hotel by the Exotics shuttle, and drove about 30 minutes to the Las Vegas Motor Speedway. First, all drivers attend a safety briefing. Then in groups of 3 you rode in a Porsche Cayenne as one of the instructors drove the track, outlining the 7 turns, the 1,800 foot main straightaway, as well as when to shift, break and throttle (gas). It was a tad like a rollercoaster during the second lap, as he drove an example of how you’d be driving. Fast and hard!

IMG_4845I was fearless up until the moment I sat behind the wheel, helmet clad, waiting for my driving coach to adjust the seat and steering wheel properly to my body. My driving coach, Ben then sat next to me in the passenger side and tried to engage me in some small talk as well as going over some additional things to think about. Passing is allowed but only at the discretion of your instructor and only after certain safely steps are taken. Yes, other cars are on the track with you.

We agreed that I’d give paddle shifting a go, and if I didn’t like it we could switch the car into automatic at any moment. I pulled out of the bay and made my way to the track. My mouth was as dry as sand and my heart was beating out of my chest. It’s not everyday that you not only drive a $100,000.00 car that can go nearly 200 mph, but get to race it around a track.

I’m happy I purchased 7 laps each (base price includes 5 laps) because it went by in a heartbeat. The first few laps you are really getting to know the track, the car, and how to take a corner properly going 100 mph. It’s a steep learning curve. There are certain ways to drive a race car around a corner, it’s not at all like going to the super market (well, not any more). Approaching a curve or turn you break gently then more as you get closer to the apex. You also approach the curve wide. After initially breaking, you steer tight towards the apex, hugging the turn and accelerating. Coming out of the apex, you smooth out the line of the car and go wide again, now accelerating hard. All that is in a matter of seconds. Keep in mind, you may be shifting as well during that time.

There is simply nothing like it. No rollercoaster or amusement park ride can prepare you for how this is going to feel. (Perhaps being in a fighter jet or on the back of a cheetah?) When you (with the help of your coach) are hugging the edge of a corner and pushing the throttle hard, the car feels like it’s on the razors edge of control. My coach would gently poke my right knee when he wanted me to hit the gas. He also said different things like Trust me. Trust the car. Breathe. Look ahead, where you want to go, not down at the turn you are on. On my second or third lap, I was lapped by the other R8 (another driver, not Michael). My competitive nature showed and I voiced the disappointment in myself. Take it easy Jedi, you’ll get there, he said.

By the fifth, sixth and seventh laps, I was just getting the hang of it. Each lap Ben pushed me harder and farther. Sexy fast car scenes look one way on TV and in the movies, but to be in the drivers seat, flying by the seat of your pants, is all together different. To feel the sheer power of the vehicle’s lightning acceleration on the straightaway and the thrill of tight cornering at 100 mph, is beyond a rush. A few times I felt the car truly gripping the pavement and fighting for control through speed and cornering. My body felt thrown backward during acceleration, my core and leg muscles would contract while breaking and an allover contorted pressure from cornering. It was a really unique experience to manipulate something with that much power. Learning to work with it in unison, not taming it, but wielding it.

I also thought it was interesting that I was one of only two female drivers in my group and there were only a handful of women throughout the day. Even when chatting about it with friends afterwards, the response was always, You drove?!? Or Did you drive?!? Why wouldn’t I? Of course I bloody well drove! It was my idea. Gird up your loins ladies, let’s GO!!

Towards the end of my driving, I believe I gave a few whoops and giggles of elation. I was higher than a kite exiting the car and for several hours afterwards. Michael was on the track as I finished and I was able to video a few of his laps. He was just as euphoric when he finished, so much so, we both promptly wanted to do it again.

IMG_4813We also ate some pretty amazing meals while in Las Vegas also. My husbands favorite meal was at Scott Conant’s Scarpetta in the Cosmopolitan. This was an amazing meal! We started off with appetizers of Raw Yellowtail sashimi with pickled red onion as well as Mediterranean Octopus with cici beans and a smoked paprika emulsion. Both of us wanted pasta as our main entree, so our server suggested we share and split one of the dishes into two plates and we ate from the second plate family style. The Duck and Foie Gras Ravioli with marsala reduction was rich but damn heavenly. The Pici (pasta) with Lobster, tarragon, almond, and chili pesto was also to die for.

IMG_4888My favorite meal was the 9 course omakase (chef’s tasting menu) at Nobu in Caesars Palace. This visually stunning meal was pretty tremendous. I must confess it contained Blue Fin Tuna, both a tail section and the torro or belly. I did not know this at the time of ordering, as it’s chef’s choice. Please do not hate me, but I did not send it back, I did indeed eat it. I figured, it’s on my plate, I paid for it and it’s my duty as a diner to responsibility consume it as it had already been harvested. I did however, ask our server what Chef Nobu’s view on sustainability was and I felt his response was a little song and dance. But the tuna was pretty spectacular. Our menu also contained Wagyu Beef, which was also damn amazing.

All in all it was a pretty great weekend with minor complaints, like the heat. I think it will be a while before we visit Las Vegas again, but if we haven’t found other ways to get our need for speed fix, we’ll certainly be going to Exotics Racing again.


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South Beach Food and Wine Festival

IMG_4085My husband and I had the great privilege recently of staying with some amazing friends for a few days while we all attended the South Beach (Sobe) Food and Wine Festival in Miami, Florida.

Our adventure started with a red-eye flight from Seattle, WA to Miami, FL. After landing in Miami at 8 am, we grabbed some coffee at the airport and hopped in a town car to South Beach, where we arrived at our friends stunning condo. The quintessential South Beach landscape of beach and ocean, was just steps from their abode on the 15th floor. White sand, turquoise waters, flawless sky and 80-degree temperature beckoned us, as we all spent several hours lounging under large beach umbrellas chatting and catching up.

We did not have a festival event to attend until the following evening, so we ate dinner at Juvia. Eating outside on the deck with sweeping views of Miami was ideal in the mild evening heat.
Juvia’s menu featured “a trinity of French, Japanese and Peruvian cooking styles, studied and meticulously crafted as a result of a decades of training within each culture”. Our meal was pretty phenomenal. The flavors were very fresh and seasonal. We started with cocktails and several small, crudo (raw in Italian) plates. We then moved on to entrees and even desert.

The first event we attended of the Food and Wine Festival was Paella & Tapas by the Pool with José Andrés (head chef behind multiple award winning restaurants) at the SLS Hotel. This outdoor event with walk-around tastings was surrounding the pool area. Food and winery booths were set up and a large space was dedicated to several enormous pans of paella being made. Having never been to this caliber of event before, Michael and I quickly realized that if there were any doubt small tastes would not be filling, we were quickly corrected. Some bites were better than others. Our favorite bite of the evening was a date wrapped in bacon, stuffed with cheese, deep fried then drizzled with Dulce de leche.

IMG_4132I was looking forward to the opportunity to see/meet José Andrés. I’ve seen him on Anthony Bourdain’s No Reservations, he was a judge on Top Chef and he was also the food consultant for the TV show Hannibal. His fun loving and whimsical attitude on these shows was enduring. We did manage to get a photo with José, however he seemed much too busy to really chat with us and insisted on making goofy faces in the photos. Needless to say, I was a bit let down.

The following evening, we attended the Best of the Best event at the famous Fountainbleau Hotel. Held in a large ballroom with the dessert area spilling out into a large hall, this event was also walk-around tastings. The scale of the event (and those attending) was unlike anything I had ever seen. Live and DJ’d music, special blue lighting, elegant floating candle centerpieces, large vendor displays, and hordes of fabulous people. At the door you were presented a wine glass with a neck strap, as well as a plate with a glass holder – all for the convenience of freeing your hands up. Because holding a wine glass, a small plate of food, and a napkin – while trying to take a photo with your phone of said food, a display, yourself, your friends, a celebrity chef or anything else that catches your eye was a challenge. At times this event was very crowded. It was a small miracle that while maneuvering through masses of people, balancing food and drink, none of us managed to spill anything on ourselves or anyone else (that we know of).

IMG_4234Scott Conant (judge on TV show Chopped, multiple restaurants including Scarpetta) made an appearance near the booth of his restaurant and we just happened to be in the area. My perception of him rang true as his “do” was quite big with not a single hair out of place and the aura of his ego was equally as big. However, he happened to be the chef crush of the female friend we were with, so I tagged along for a photo with him.

The next day we went to the Goya Foods Grand Tasting Village & Demos set up on the beach in tents just steps from the condo. There we were fortunate enough to see demonstrations by Giada, David Burtka and Neil Patrick Harris, Morimoto, and Arrón Sánchez. In addition, we also sampled some food and drinks under the sandy floored tents.

In the evening we attended a dinner at Scott Conant’s restaurant Scarpetta located in the Fountainbleau Hotel. The dinner was hosted by Scott, Michael Pirolo and Nina Compton (Top Chef Season 11). This was a multi-course, fixed menu, sit down dinner with beverage pairings. Since this was my third evening in heels, my feet were thankful for a sit-down affair. To me, this meal ate rather heavy and seemed a bit rich. There was no light, fresh, or even acid component to any of the meal.

IMG_4233Our last day in Miami, we attended brunch hosted by Nigella Lawson at restaurant Casa Tua. I was aware of who Nigella Lawson was, however she had not really been on my radar much. This, by far was my favorite event from the festival. For starters, the multi-course, fixed menu, sit down brunch was far more intimate. Ms. Lawson was available to her guests, more so than any other host had been. She made her way over to every table taking time for questions and photos. For me, the “dessert” was the best. Strawberry Consommé with yogurt ice cream and fresh blueberries, served with Old-Rag Pie with Honey and Thyme. And as we left, we all received a signed copy of her latest cookbook.

I am very thankful and fortunate to have attended this food and wine festival, not to mention staying with such generous and hospitable hosts. This was a rather expensive vacation as each event held its own ticket price and some events were more spendy than others. If I judge this experience on value, then I’m looking at it from the wrong perspective. In my opinion, I could have not eaten the value of any one of the ticket cost. And besides the Nigella’s cookbook, the “giveaways” didn’t amount to much. I believe this was a once-in-a-lifetime event.

Going into it, my expectation was to be wowed with every bite, sample, small plate, taste and morsel. I learned that while some amazing restaurants and chefs were represented, a taste coming from a booth in the middle of a hotel ballroom, heated on a hot plate or plated from ingredients in a cooler, is not the same as coming from a professional kitchen. The point is, individual ingredients lose something when they are prepped ahead of time due to the fact that limited heat and cooling resources are available by a hotel pool or in a ballroom. Not to mention having enough supplies to serve several hundred people. (Now I have greater appreciation for what the Top Chef contestants go through!) While each restaurant wanted to stand out as innovative and original, showy themes of tartare, foie gras, and truffle were common. So much so, that by my second event, I was tired of truffles (can you imagine). Some beverage parings hit the mark and some did not. Namely tequila paired with truffle risotto, missed the mark by far.

IMG_4164I also became aware of the chef’s who are more about branding themselves and those who’s focus seem to be more about the food they present. Some of these chef personalities have TV shows, many have cook books, some endorse products, some have their own spice line, pots and pans, or utensil series. I’m sure they all wish to be successful, however with some, the marketing effort is more obvious than others. As I sat and watched a few chef demonstrations, I noticed how the crowd cheered like school girls at a Beatles concert when the chef came to the stage. Is that because they are on TV? (This event was hosted by the Food Network.) Or is it truly because the fans actually cook their food and care about food quality, what’s in season, where it is sourced, etc, etc, etc.? It may be a combination of the two. Although I think that’s a very valid question: in a day and age of convenience & processed foods, where people are in fact cooking less – then why are chefs the new rock stars and TV cooking show popularity on the rise?

Answer: because by in large, people don’t want to cook themselves, they want someone else to do the cooking, and they even want to watch them do it.

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Dinner with a Master Bladesmith

IMG_3760 (1)A few months ago I stumbled upon a short video series entitled Raw Craft on You Tube sponsored by The Balvenie (a distillery located in Ireland producing a unique range of single malt whiskies). The series is hosted by Anthony Bourdain (the American chef, author and TV personality). To quote the Raw Craft web site, the video series features “an inspiring behind the scenes look inside the workshops of some of the most talented, creative and hardworking craftspeople in America. In The Balvenie spirit, Bourdain will uncover the true meaning of craftsmanship. Each film showcases artisans guiding him through the process while providing unique insight into the dedication and sacrifice required to produce everyday items by hand.”

Being a fan of Bourdain, I quickly watched all six mini-episodes, ranging in length from six to fourteen minutes. Episode four immediately piqued my interest because it was shot in Olympia, Washington – where I live. This episode featured Master Bladesmith Bob Kramer of Kramer Knives. He is one of a hundred and twenty-two Master Bladesmiths in the US, certified by the American Bladesmith Society and the ONLY one specializing in kitchen knives. His knives are some of the most sought after culinary knives in the world. To quote Bourdain, “The legendary Bob Kramer handcrafts the finest chef’s knives in the world. It would be inappropriate to call it the Rolls Royce or Ferrari of knives, because the type of car has not been invented that reflects this kind of quality… when you hold this thing in your hand, you feel a warm hum.”

For Bob himself to make you a custom knife forged in his Olympia shop, one must enter a lottery, where names are both chronologically and randomly selected from their website email list. We are talking hand crafted from beginning to end, in an average time of around 25 hours (give or take) for each knife. Even the steel is “made” from scratch. Using a baking analogy – this would be like making your own flour from scratch for a cake you are going to bake. Also, you are looking at a $300 an inch price tag – so an 8” chefs knife will cost you $2,400.00 Some people think that’s too much for a kitchen knife, but it depends on how you look at it. In my opinion his knives are works of art, and art is subjective. You can splurge on a Picasso or you can buy a painting from the guy down the street. It’s your choice, of course.

So needless to say, this guy makes pretty awesome knives. Fast forward a few weeks. My husband and I were in a Sur la Table store in Seattle. I was handling a few of the “more affordable and easier to acquire” Kramer Knives, partnered with Zwilling J.A. Henckels, made in Japan. Walking out of the store I informed my husband that I would be wishing for a Kramer 8″ Stainless Damascus Chef’s Knife by Henckels ($400) for Christmas. A few weeks after that, in the home of our neighbors, I learned that these very neighbors are Bob’s mother and father-in-law. How random is that? My head nearly exploded!

Christmas morning my husband (and the culinary gods) gifted me my very own 8” Kramer chef knife. I nearly fell out of my chair with glee! At that moment, I thought there’s no harm in inviting everyone to a dinner party. And so with a Go Big or Go Home attitude, I drafted a letter stating my intention of selfishly wanting to meet Mr. Kramer, and offering to host Mr. Kramer, his wife Leanne, as well as Gloria and Skip (his mother and father-in-law) to my house for dinner. Less than 24 hours later, I not only had my answer, I had a date, a time, as well as a few dietary restrictions. Go Big or Go Home indeed! Challenge accepted!

To give you some perspective on how coveted Kramer knives are in the culinary world – many 3-Michelin star Chefs have a Kramer Knife. Bob is hosted all over the world to culinary events, haute couture meals (the kind that are 5 hours long and plated with tweezers) and is invited to the Aspen Food and Wine Festival. He was featured on Bravo’s Top Chef, and CBS did a special on him. In 1998, food magazine Saveur helped to launch Kramer Knives with a feature article (link below) and most recently he received The Balvenie Rare Craft Fellowship Award in 2015. Needless to say, I’m sure you can imagine my slight nervousness at entertaining a culinary Rock Star in my home!

The most difficult aspect for me was coming up with a gluten and dairy free dessert that consisted of more than just fruit. I scoured my Barefoot Contessa cookbooks and found the perfect sweet.

Apps: Thyme-Roasted Marcona Almonds & Kir Royal
Main: Balsamic Roasted Beef
Canlis Salad (w/Romano cheese on the side)
Duck Fat Roasted Potatoes
Desert: Fresh Raspberry Grantins

On the morning of the event, I woke up and made a mental T-minus countdown clock in my head. As fate would have it, the day would not be complete without a bit of drama. Shortly after eating breakfast, Michael (my husband) informed me that the hot water heater was leaking from one of the copper pipes and there was a bit of a watery mess. After cleaning up the water, and a call to an emergency plumber, I took off for the grocery. After I returned, Michael helped me prep the salad and potatoes. Time seemed to inch closer and closer as I continued to get ready for the evening.

Version 2Within seconds of their arrival, my nerves and anxious energy were put at ease. Bob, Leanne, Gloria and Skip were all so kind, gracious and complimentary. Everyone was very personable and down to earth. Unbeknownst to me, our opening beverage, a Kir Royale, (a French apéritif) is one of Bob and Leanne’s favorite drinks, so I got extra points for that. When Bob carved the meat, I was pleased to see it was a nice medium to medium rare. I drizzled a balsamic reduction over the plated meat slices and roasted potatoes. I was a little disappointed in my plate presentation, however everything was flavorful, the meat retained it’s moisture, and the salad was the perfect punch of fresh, crisp, and lemon acidity from the vinaigrette.

The Fresh Raspberry Gratins needed to be made-to-order essentially, so I had to excuse myself to make them. Leanne was kind enough to assist me in the kitchen. The gratins consisted of raspberries and a sabayon – a light, mousse-like dessert that’s made by whisking egg yolks, sugar and sweet Marsala wine over gently boiling water until the eggs thicken to resemble loose whipped cream. I sprinkled sugar over the sabayon and berries in individual gratin dishes and caramelized the sugar with a culinary torch to get a bit of a crunchy texture. The dessert also received rave reviews.

All in all, I believe the evening was a success! The conversation varied from food to knives, back to food, travel, pets, relationships, bees, and much in-between. I really treasured this experience and was thrilled to host such amazing people in my home. I grew as a hostess and as a person from this – as I tend to do each time my life is enriched by a shared meal with great people. My eyes are wider, my perspective is broadened, my soul is nourished and my heart is filled with warmth and compassion. Never underestimate the power of a shared meal – whether it’s in a 3-Michelin star restaurant, a food truck with plastic lawn chairs, or in your own home with a crackling fire, wine, music and food cooked with love.

Bon Appétit!


Raw Craft You Tube Video

Saveur article on Bob Kramer

Kramer Knives

The Balvenie Raw Craft

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drive – to strive vigorously toward a goal or objective; to work, play, or try wholeheartedly and with determination.

Psychology: an inner urge that stimulates activity or inhibition; a basic or instinctive need.


Several months ago I had a breakthrough of sorts.  While working on personal development with someone I’ll refer to as Yoda, I experienced a significant realization regarding a childhood experience, and I’m just beginning to piece together the past ramifications as well as a new future consciousness.

When I was 6 years old I was deeply shamed, punished and degraded by an immediate member of my family.  My weekend homework from elementary school was to work on counting by 2’s.  As I slowly worked through the concept, my “tutor” got increasingly irate, extremely impatient as well as physically abusive.  I was severely disciplined for not learning it fast enough (as would become the case with all math homework).  I was not good enough, stupid, slow, and a complete failure.  The fact that I was emotional and crying didn’t help the situation either.  This has always been one of my most painful memories from childhood.

I did not know it at the time, but I had just been branded as stupid, incompetent and worthless – a label I would subconsciously wear for many years to come.  This event burned a mark in me so deep that I would spend much of my life building a suit of armor around myself, as well as developing survival and defensive techniques just to get by in the world around me.

Seeds of anger and rage grew quietly inside me.  This act of brute force forever destroyed this person in my eyes and I have never fully forgiven them for it.  This event was not an isolated incident, outbursts like this, often violent, didn’t stop there.  Others in my household were also targeted.  Alcohol was the common factor.

To say this event shaped who I am today, is an understatement.  From this event as a 6 year old, I developed a strong sense of independence, resourcefulness, work ethic, perfection, and drive.  I was usually suspicious of others, kept most people at a distance and had few friends.  I found sanctuary in the ballet studio and regardless of lack of natural ability, I buried myself deep in hard work.  I was studious and soaked up ballet like a sponge.  I was always on time, my ballet shoes were sewn, my was hair up in a bun, I paid attention, I didn’t talk or goof around in class, I always remembered the choreography, and I was as professional as I could be.

Perfection became my primary drive.  There is usually anger behind drive, it was certainly behind my drive.  My subconscious mantra became, I will never be stupid, incompetent or worthless again!!  Ballet (based on perfection) was the ideal vehicle for my drive.  So I became quite good at all the things that accompanied my drive – maximum physical effort, precision, eye for detail, organization, timeliness, do what needs to be done without being asked, initiative, creativity, self motivation, generosity, and putting others first.  It’s also important to note that I didn’t do something unless I was good at it, so needless to say, I didn’t stray far from dance.


I met my husband 9 years ago.  Among other things, he is a skier.  I had always wanted to try skiing, but never had the means or opportunity.  Learning to ski as an adult has certainly been challenging for me.  Learning to ski as a driven perfectionist as been damn near impossible.  I’ve been skiing for about 8 years now, and am a proficient blue groomed run skier.  I avoid black diamond runs as well as moguls because of my cranky knees & hips from dancing.  However, I skied a black diamond in Aspen, which I consider a star in my crown.

As I mentioned at the beginning, a few months ago I had a breakthrough.  Working with Yoda, I realized the lifelong impact that the “counting by 2’s” event had on me.  I have been trying to prove my whole life that I’m not worthless, that I AM worthy, and I’m not stupid.  As I worked with Yoda that day, I formed the intention and progressed through the steps to reduce my drive by 10%, with the ultimate goal of getting rid of it completely.

Fast forward to today, or rather several days ago – Christmas eve day to be exact.  My husband and I were skiing, which has been a tradition for us (snow levels allowing) for several years now.  While skiing down our first run of the day, I realized that although I was skiing a run I have skied many times, my energy output was fairly high.  I looked ahead to my husband who appeared to be skiing effortlessly.  I feel every muscle in my body tense, my feet are cramping and my hands are gripping the hell out of my poles.  This is not an unfamiliar sensation to me – this IS how I ski.  Only now, I’m acutely aware of it.  The ski conditions were a skiers dream, lots of fresh snow, lots of powder, and a stunningly beautiful day.  Try as I might, I was not enjoying myself, nor was I having “fun”.  At the top of a run, looking down, I realized I have never had fun skiing.  It’s just something I did.  As we continued to ski and my realization increased, an intense sadness came over me.  I realized I honestly didn’t like skiing.  Every time I skied, my feet would painfully cramp, and my entire body would tense as I made it down a run.  My extreme output of energy as I powered down each run, as one big moving clenched muscle began to take its toll.  Despite the fact my husband said I looked effortless skiing, it was not effortless for me.

Four hours later, my husband and I had lunch.  I fought back tears trying to explain my frustration to him.  Picking the soup spoon to eat my soup, my husband noticed my right hand shaking.  I also had trouble holding my drink glass up.  I had been gripping my poles so hard, that now my hands were having spasms.

Leaving Crystal Mt. Ski Resort and driving to our Christmas Eve destination, Michael and I thought it best if I called Yoda.  (Part of my coaching program is to call him whenever I need to.)  I was indeed able to speak with him.  As I mentioned earlier, I was now acutely aware of my output of energy because of my recent work on my drive.  Yoda mentioned that skiing was like putting my drive under a microscope.  I had been branded as stupid at the age of 6.  The protective armor and self-defensive mechanisms I developed, resulted in a powerful drive through being physically strong (physically active through my whole life), a hard worker, a perfectionist and so on.  Therefore I wasn’t capable of skiing any other way – IE maximum physical effort and wanting to be as proficient at it as quickly as possible – and getting frustrated at the steep learning curve.

I still feel a bit melancholy about the difficulty I had skiing on Christmas eve.  As if I’m somehow at a precipice, afraid to go forward.  This is often the feeling when I realize the past is no longer serving me, and I need to let go of what is holding me back in order to evolve.  I feel vulnerable, almost naked.  It is time to renounce my drive.

As far as a game plan, I have a few different options.  As I work on letting my drive go, I may need to take a break from skiing.  It may turn out to be like taking one step forward, but two steps back if I continue to ski while working through my drive.  However, if I decide to give skiing another go, and it doesn’t seem to turn around for me, I may need to stop skiing altogether.  I’d very much love to return to the peaceful snowy landscape I loved as a child . . .  I may possibly take up snowshoeing.


May peace be with you.

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